I apologize for no posts lately! Finals are destroying my soul 😛 Will be back soon!
Last Friday a graduate at UCI killed himself, jumped from the top of the Social Science parking structure. This has happened before. He did it though at 5:00 pm. In front of people. People were standing there at the entrance of the parking structure. He fell 6 stories. And hit the ground. And died. […]
I saw the Hobbit tonight at the cheap theatre! I went with my two best friends and it was AMAZING. My roommate and I recently watched the whole trilogy so I was prepared. It was 3D also, which I used to be scared of when I was little. I love movies that take me into […]
I apologize for being so MIA lately. I just started taking Lithium. Lithium: A naturally occurring salt that, in purified form, is used to treat certain psychiatric disorders, especially bipolar disease. The therapeutic level of lithium – the amount needed to treat bipolar disorders – is perilously close to the level that can […]
I’ve had a hard time writing lately. I’ve been experiencing a lot of perceptual disturbances, says my psychiatrist. Things move when I am still. If I stare at something too long, my thoughts can get locked on it and it feels as if I cannot look away or move. Because of this it messes up […]
This has been one crazy, awesome weekend. I visited my girlfriend this past weekend and am now on my way back south as we speak. That is also why I haven’t posted any new entries. I arrived in Northern CA at 10:10 AM Saturday like I normally do with that route. I am now becoming […]
I never meant to contort my reality into what it has become today. My stare zooms in and out like a vintage camera attempting to catch the clarity. My thoughts talk to me instead of me thinking them. My body cannot understand certain commands or ordinary occurrences. I don’t think it […]
I have a section of wall space in my bedroom in my current apartment about the span of my arms bordered by two doors on either side. Above each door are flower photos from a dollar store calendar with inspiring words like “visualize” and “clarity.” Hanging between the doors is a string of Tibetan prayer […]
“And if we forgive life for not being what we told it to be, or expected, or wished, or longed for it to be, we forgive ourselves for not being what we might have been also. And then we can be what we are, which is boundless.” I read this in a passage of another […]
All I’ve done this weekend is knit and watch Lord of the Rings, and I honestly see nothing wrong with this. I go through phases with my hobbies (and mostly everything else in my life); once upon a time I loved to knit and did it constantly. Now I’m back into it. I finished a […]
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