I have a section of wall space in my bedroom in my current apartment about the span of my arms bordered by two doors on either side. Above each door are flower photos from a dollar store calendar with inspiring words like “visualize” and “clarity.” Hanging between the doors is a string of Tibetan prayer […]

“And if we forgive life for not being what we told it to be, or expected, or wished, or longed for it to be, we forgive ourselves for not being what we might have been also. And then we can be what we are, which is boundless.” I read this in a passage of another […]

All I’ve done this weekend is knit and watch Lord of the Rings, and I honestly see nothing wrong with this. I go through phases with my hobbies (and mostly everything else in my life); once upon a time I loved to knit and did it constantly. Now I’m back into it. I finished a […]

Side Note: After writing my entry on self-harm, I’ve had a hard time writing the next entry. What do you write after that? I didn’t want to just abandon my blog so soon after beginning it. It would just be me running away from my feelings again. That’s why I can never keep a journal. […]

When I hit my peak of depression in July of 2012, I began a partial hospitalization program in Sacramento. For the first two weeks, I was there from 8am to 3 pm, 5 days a week. It lessened from that point until 2 months had passed and I “graduated” (got kicked out). Like almost everyone […]

Celebrating my birthday was something I would have rather avoided. The only good thing about being 21 is that I can buy alcohol, which could be helpful in half ass suicide attempts. Adding another number to my count down just makes me feel desperate. Everyone keeps asking me what I want to do after I […]